I'm not sure if my blog title is more for me....
or for Jayce:
This was the scene at my house around 5:30 PM tonight.
Ugh, the dreaded "too late in the day" nap.
I can't remember the last time Jayce has done this. He hasn't napped regularly since he was 2 and a half.
The poor guy was just plain worn out. We had a very frustrating day of running around for Kindergarten school registration. Although Jayce has been a student of this school district for 2 academic years, this is his first year at Jaina's school and we were treated to a mountain of "new student" paperwork. Jayce's patience level, not to mention mine, was taxed beyond repair by the time we actually got to meet his new teacher.
Our morning outing ended with Jayce getting over tired, demanding that I carry him around the school (he's 5 and 40 lbs, btw), and eventually just crumpling on the hallway floor outside his classroom, crying. Even after we got him to the car and got him home, he continued to tantrum for a full hour.
Call me crazy, but this does not bode well.
I would really really really love to believe that Jayce will be absolutely fine in Kindergarten come Monday. That he'll act just like any other typical 5 year old coming to Kindergarten for the first time.
But, I'm going to be honest. I don't. Call me a worry wort if you will, or one of those mothers that overreacts at the littlest thing. Unless you have a child with special circumstances, you just don't know how to explain away your worst fears. How do you ignore your mommy gut instinct, when its never failed you before?
Here's what I'm scared of...
-Jayce's attention span (or lack, there of).
-How he's going to handle the over 6 hour school day.
-Jayce getting tired (he just shuts down).
-Jayce questioning everything that is said and asked of him. Not only is this an extremely annoying trait of Jayce's, it can also be seen as disobedience.
-Jayce inappropriately getting into fellow classmate's personal space.
-Jayce not transitioning well from activity to activity.
-Jayce's stimming being seen as weird by classmates.
-Jayce's impulsivity with touching light switches and buttons.
-Jayce saying inappropriate words or phrases (such as atomically correct words or morbid topics)
More than anything, I do not want Jayce to be seen as a behavior problem. But how can he not be? I mean, that's the whole reason we have a team of behavioral therapists that come to our house each day. To work on inappropriate autistic behaviors and to teach him skills that he has a deficit in.
I can just hope and pray that my fears are totally unfounded. I'm going to send Jayce to his Kindergarten class on Monday full of confidence and high expectations of him. His SN teacher, psychologist, ST, and classroom coordinator last Spring assured me that "he would be just fine in a regular classroom without support".
Now all there is to do is to wait and see.
I hope they're right.