Its been an emotional 24 hours.
Last night, around 9 PM, I started bleeding during our time spent with friends that came over for dinner. I wasn't worried at first, it wasn't much. But then the "gush" happened and a more steady flow followed for about 90 minutes. Then I was worried. I put a call into my midwife.
I knew what she was going to tell me. "Wait and see. There's nothing anyone can do either way."
So I did.
But I was convinced that I was, in fact, in the early stages of miscarriage. I cried myself to sleep.
Thank goodness for good friends who are there to offer love, support, prayers, and childcare. She took Jayce over to her house so I could go through this without the watchful eyes of children. My mom was already with Jaina at her house, so that was covered.
My midwife met me at the Birth Center this morning at 10 AM. I can't even begin to tell you how nervous I was. She found my heartbeat right away. It was beating so fast, I almost mistook it for the fast flutter of a fetal heartbeat.
Then she heard a noise that she identified as a strong baby kick. She found the baby's beautiful heartbeat immediately aftewards.
I guess we'll never know why last night happened. I am hoping I don't live in fear of losing the baby throughout the rest of my pregnancy. All in all, I'm usually a pretty positive person.
I'll be taking a blogging break for a week to rest and "unplug" from the internet. When I get back, I'll be sure to share a belly picture with you all. There is definitely a belly now!
Thanks for all your love, prayers, and support. Both my local friends and my internet friends are so wonderful :)