Some days its Jayce, in his not-so-typical 4 year old style. Like when I tell him he's got to put the DS down or turn the Wii off.
More often, though, its Jaina. Just the littlest thing has been setting her off lately. Like when her Daddy promised to get her a Snuggie at Walmart on Sunday, only to find out they were out of kid sizes. My demanding 7 year old then ordered us quickly to another store so she could get one that day. When her parents didn't take kindly to her orders, a full out tantrum ensued. Jaina has yet to receive her coveted Snuggie since I plainly told her that she would not see one until her attitude improved.
Even Brian has a tantrum sometimes. Usually when the kids make a mess or someone made a mistake on a program at work that he's got to fix. He's definitely not afraid to let everyone and their brother know exactly how he feels that he was wronged.
However, if we were going to be giving prizes for "most tantrums" here in the Walker household, I'm afraid I may take the cake in this department. My tantrums may not be the kicking and screaming and crying kind (well, there are tears sometimes), but they are out-of-control moments where I let my anger get the best of me.
I've been extremely frustrated with Jayce's new therapy team. Actually, its not the therapy team I'm upset with, its the supervisor. I have never dealt with a more unprofessional and unorganized coordinator in my entire autism experience. And I just don't have any patience for imperfection when it comes to getting services for my son. If you tell me that you are going to do "X" on such and such a day, you'd better mean it. Because that's going in my planner and on my calendar and my schedule will now revolve around it. And if said appointment is going to be rescheduled, I will need advanced notice. And no, I don't feel like *I* should be the one to have to track down this information and confirm. Okay, rant over!
I'm also having a silent temper tantrum about the fact that I can't get an appointment with my OB/GYN's office where I see Certified Nurse Midwives for all my OBGYN needs. Now, I realize that most woman would not mind skipping their yearly exam every now and then. But I have an agenda! I need to go ahead and have my yearly done so I can go ahead and get my appointment for my IUD removal scheduled. As a compromise with my husband, I have patiently waited these 5 years with that thing in and now I want it out!! NOW!!
Hmm... wonder where my kids get it??
That's what I love about blogging. The journaling aspect of it. The self discovery. I am so much more aware of my actions and attitudes when I type them out. I need to stop my tantrums. I need to take a deep breath, stay in control, be patient, and remember my manners.
And maybe when I learn these things, I'll be able to teach them to my kids as well :)
Oh, and because I don't like to blog without pictures (but don't mind reading other's blogs without pictures), here are a few candids of Jayce from yesterday morning :)